Why do I have to do this again?
In the beginning of May, I had to testify against a doctor for sexual misconduct. I was cross-examined for four hours and was left considerably shaken. I couldn't sleep for days, hearing the voices of the court preceedings echo in my head. I was told that I wouldn't have to testify again. But tonight I received a voicemail from the detective telling me he had a subpoena for me to appear in court next Friday. I was cross-examined for FOUR HOURS. What else could I possibly have to say? I cried the entire way home. I'm still recovering from my nervous breakdown last November. I cannot do this again. I can't. I fucking can't.
posted by Heather at
11:54 PM
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Aw, Heather, I'm sorry you have to go through that sort of thing again. It's totally shitty. Just keep focussed on the fact that, the more you say about him and the more you make your voice heard, the worse shape he'll be in.
Though it's not the same, a few months ago, I had a "meeting" with a former doctor of mine with a Diversity and Human Rights officer at the hospital over him saying that I was "fucked up in the head" for seeing a psychiatrist weekly. I don't know how, but I managed to maintain my composure while we spoke (I had that whole seething-just-below-the-surface look to me), then completely fell apart the minute he left. It really takes a lot out of you. But it's satisfying: Now he has disciplinary records with both the hospital (local) and the College of Physicians and Surgeons of Ontario (provincial).
Try to focus on the satisfaction.
By
Champ, at July 09, 2006 12:16 AM
Thank you, Jaclyn. You're always there for me, even though we've never met.
I'll just be glad when its all over with.
By
Heather, at July 10, 2006 12:37 AM
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